I've decided to move for a fresh start.

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It's 11pm and I'm still in the office.

"Wo Ye Hen Xiang Ta" just came up on my iPod, and given today wasn't a particularly good day at work, I feel like I'm on the verge of tears.

Mama mia!

"Honey honey, how he thrills me..."

It was a perfect 23 hours - the prelude to my birthday celebrations that I spent with the boyfriend.

And the part that touched me most was the fact that he planned it on his own, down to a T. Admitedly I am a control freak from time to time, oh alright, 97% of the time - but there's that 3% of the time when I enjoy just being doted on. When all decision-making/planning activities are taken out of my hands and handled.

All he said was, he'd pick me up at 12 (which became 1pm and then 130pm), and that was that.

I can't get over how I didn't even guess what he was up to - or the fact that I didn't have to do a single thing. He organised, fussed and planned. And he made sure that I constantly had food - because he knows just what a pig I can be.

Thanks baby :)

Sunday blues.

Normally, I love sundays - but this particular sunday, I'm not loving so much. And Fuzzy Wuzzy agrees with me.

I have a horrible sun burn/heat rash from the shoot on Friday. And two more coming up next week - I'm not sure I'll survive. That one day in the sun has left me with the beginnings of a flu and this horrible itch.

I just want to cry.

She works hard for the money.

I've been at work at least 12 hours a day, for the past 4 weeks. I was in this morning at 815, and have only just got home (2344hrs).

If that's not passion, I don't know what is.

Honestly though, I'm tired.

I feel like I'm constantly in crisis management-mode, and I'm juggling so many balls at the moment I'm afraid I might drop them all. I'm really afraid I'm going to forget something and cause a major screw-up.

I really really am, but the boyfriend has been a great pillar of support.

He bought me speakers yesterday at Comex - yes, we braved the crowds (it was disgusting! and all for what, a meagre savings of $20/$30? bah.), and I'm really loving them. I've been wanting to get speakers for awhile now so I don't have to listen to my music through the tinny speakers on my laptop.

I like listening to my music, it soothes me and helps me sort out my thoughts. Especially after a whole day of fire-fighting at work.

Just sitting here enjoying the music and relieving my mind of the day's thoughts by writing feels really therapeutic.

I like it.